@心碎@

爱一直存在歌词那天我扬起帆
想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来

天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百
是否为我等待

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say googbye
我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在
站在你的门外 我却幸福在徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白
时间过的好快
想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百
我应该怎么猜

爱一直存在

GoodBye and Hello

Hooray!! Finals exam ended this afternoon and semester break is going to start tomorrow!! This will be a long one, 5 weeks wea!! Happy , happy and Happy!! *winked*

Going to leave this small town tomorrow and I just can't wait to get out of here!! Anyway, when something starts, something ended too. There are friends leaving Kampar and going to PJ or SgLong and even Perth soon. Well, time to depart is just too fast. I only got like 6 months with you all, and yet, you boys and girls are AWESOME! I love you all^^

十字街道做背景 寒风当道具
气氛冷得就像要下雨 我在等回忆光临
记忆中那场相遇 还如此清晰
怎么转眼就面对分离

温馨片段没整理 已经来不及
你说有我暖过的手心 现在贴近别的心
深情像片碎玻璃 散落在眼底
闪着晶莹却也痛了自己

我愿意不爱你
因为所有快乐都涂上凄美记忆
我愿意不爱你
以后所有快乐伤悲都那么多余
我愿意不爱你
痛就放在心里不用关闭
不需要痊愈

@Emotionally Sicked@

I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought that I could smile and not memory through it, pretend like it will all be okay.

I had a plan.

I wanted to change who I was, giving life to something new.
I wanted to be someone without the past, without the pain, someone alive.

But its not that easy.
Bad things stay with you, they follow you.
You can’t escape them as much as you want to.
All you can do is be ready for the good.
So, when it comes, you can let it in, because you needed it.
I need it.

Well, this gonna be a long post , since I had been m.i.a for a while.*guilt* Spend my holidays before finals and it was a great one. Killed time by traveling, shopping, hunting for nice food, clubbing and also those gathering sessions. There's a few memorable stuff happen, worth to share.

Where to begin? *thinking-hard* Yea, got to PJ last last Wednesday night. Headed to Little Dim Sum @SS2 for dinner + supper. Its MeiLin Sis and my favorite place for supper, other than KTZ.. Got a text from YenLing Darl, she was on her way to SS2 while I'm already getting ready to leave Little DimSum. Kononnya, the friends and her wanted to try the newly open dessert shop called Tong Shui Ko Ko, a few shops away from L.D.S. Told her not to try cause cousin sister tried it before with her housemates and, its not nice. If not mistaken, she went to KTZ in the end.. *winked*

Next, shopping shopping and shopping.. Spent the day in MidValley.. Jeez, the mega sales are like, CRAZY!! especially the Isetan ones.. *gulp* Heels, I need new heels and plattform desperately and I got myself 2 pairs of heels @ Isetan.. Fair and reasonable price.. The original price is like around rm120 for both and there is a 50% and 70% off!! Great huh? So, end up buying one gold color heels that I wore to M.O.S that night and keeping the other black color platform heels in my closet.. Got some lil advice from the cousins... Pay attention , gals!!
"If you're wearing skinnies or pants or trousers or shorts, choose PLATTFORM.. If you're so girly, always wearing a skirt, Heels will be more suitable"
Did I mention I got myself another 2 lil dress from Isetan also? One from KeyNg, summer feel lil dress in green and another one from some Korean brand and is super duper nice!! Keeping the korean brand lil dress to CNY!! Both of the dress are madly on sale, 50% off and it cost me like 50bucks for each? Oh, forget bout the price, the best thing is, they both come with the size XS!! See,how hard for me to get a fitting dress?

Went to Garden to hunt for our favorite Taiwanese food. The mee-sua and also the super big crispy fried chicken chop rice^^ slurrrpsss..

Clubbing was the hit that night. It was a Thursday and friends are thinking that its gonna be a ladies night. The cousins said its not likely to be a ladies as it was a Public Holiday Eve.. Anyway, there was always two options for us.. Either to pay the cover or to open bottles. Did I mention who I went M.O.S with? Nope,right? Went with the Cousin, 5 of her students and another 3 of my old friends.. It was Chee Hui and Voon Hui's first clubbing experience!! 3 friends planned to pay the cover and to get drinks inside as they don't really drink.. I'm more calculative. You pay around 50 bucks for the cover and yet you need to pay at least another 20bucks for the drinks, so why don't you share to open bottles with your friends and get free flow of Pepsi or Coke or whatever? It cost like around 60bucks? Anyway, I din spent a single penny that night.. It was a great night, but not as crazy though.. Few boys from Taylors and Sunway come approach.. argh!! Miss those clubbing nights with the Crazy Gang, they can help you to escape from "non-target" approach, or mind I called them as "color-wolf"? One and only random boy approach Darl, and gosh!! He was an INDIAN!! No prejudice, no racism!! Just, her charm is not just that, kay?
The worst part is, the cousin's student got drunk and keep trying to flirt with me.. Gosh, well, I admit he is good-looking, but, 18 is still too young for me, though I'm oli 19. Who cares? Stop texting and calling, okie? We can hang out, but, don't try flirt.. I'm consider a big sister for you, okie?

Cut it short!!
This post is a bit , way too long.. Impossible to blog every single thing right? Hemp, choose some significant ones.. Yea, ZOUK, strictly govern and only those above 21st are allowed. But, I sneaked through the security SUCESSFULLY. Why? The answer is simple, we know someone inside^^ Anyway, we went to Poppy and also Quattro. Still, M.O.S is the best for me.. Why? Its non-smoking!! Your hair won't sucks when you done clubbing and you don't need to wash it for ten thousand times before you can finally get rid of the smokey smell.

Oh, bi was so protective and considerate. Never leave me a single inch, holding hands every single moment and he can gracefully "chase" those "color-wolf" away.. Feel so protected^^
We went shopping around PJ and Sunway, of course, Pyramid was always his first choice. He bought me these.
Dark Chocolate from Fererro, the parents bought it from UK.. It taste different than those sold locally in Malaysia.. argh!! Overseas's chocolate are always better..
And this, Jaspal lil dress. It is an off-shoulder satin dress, blue in color and its soooo comfortable to wear.. Got another skinnies there too.. Thanks lot..

Went Melaka for the Jonker and also the satay celup. Bought another of handmade clogs from the famous handmade clogs shop.

argh.. I'm kind of starving, gonna grab my lunch.. Will continue if I still got the time. Finals is just around the corner.. Need to start isolating myself^^

@Clean and Clear Cut@

Well, what to say? Yea, finally end all the miserable stuff with him. Well, its very BabePrince's style, drag and drag and drag till this very moment. I guess I just can't stand it anymore. End, then make it a clean and clear cut, okie?

You should read this~

If the truth was told instead of a lie, the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. You said it was a white lie, but, don't you ever think of how am I going to feel if I find out the truth? Did you ever feel guilty for doing these to me? How did you feel when you are accusing me?

You said you don't want to see me hurt.But, all you did, hurt me seriously. You broke my heart right into two. So, do you mean that you are going to close your eyes when I'm crying in pain ? It really hurts when you expect so much more from the person you once deeply , madly in love.

Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful. I am telling myself, " If someone you love breaks your heart, cry a river, build a bridge and get over it!! No one worth your tears, if you found the one who worth it, he will never make you cry!!".

If tears could build a stairway on memories alone, BabePrince, I'd walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again. Ask me how many times my heart has been broken, and I will tell you to look up upon the sky and to count the stars. You had broke my heart these much.

I believe, one day, you will seek for love again, and you will be regret that you threw mine away. You will tell all our common friends, " Damn it!! This girl really love me!!"

I used to believe that love is a magic, but now I realize that magic can sometimes, just an illusion.

I used to wish that I had the guts to walk away, without saying Goodbye and forget what we had been through. But, I knew I can't, cause you will never come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. But, not this time.

You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel??
I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool??

@GoodBye BabePrince@

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Because in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

I am not that strong, its killing me when I told you, I can't take it anymore.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours. It was easy for me to say, but, its really hard to do it..

Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go.I knew I have to forgive to forget,and forget, to feel again.

I just wanna to be remembered as the girl who always smiled, who can always brighten your days up, even though she couldn't brighten her own..